i am a runner

last weigh in i was down 5 pounds. feeling better... taking it slow.

i stayed after school on tuesday for my first run. ran for 30 minutes -- walked twice -- feel very sore... sore in places that you don't think should get sore from a run, like my abs and my hip joints and my ankles. as much pain as i am in, i am so glad to have started the running process again. i really (although you wouldn't be able to tell by looking at me ...) love to run.

when i was at baylor, in one of about a million awkward stories, i actually said to someone when they asked me what i like to do for exercise: 'i am a runner'.

this was followed by my room mate, jen, looking at me and buckling over in laughter. then i started laughing. then the sweet girl i was telling (who became another room mate... sarah) looked at us both in total confusion. then i had to confess that, although i enjoy jogging for exercise, i probably can't call myself 'a runner'.

since then, jen and sarah have loved probing me about 'being a runner'...

i do hope one day to run a marathon... it has always been a goal. maybe then i can officially call myself a runner. until then, i will keep plugging along with my little jogs to try to get back in shape. the goal is to start staying after one day a week for a run, one day a week for zumba, yoga on saturday mornings... and walks with p in between. this seems to be all i can muster for now.

progress

2 pounds down.

motivation

on tuesday a student asked me if i was pregnant.

5 minutes after that class i was walking into the library to complain to my librarian friend about the student asking me if i was pregnant in front of the whole class and i bumped into a parent volunteer who was helping kids check out books.

she asked me if i was pregnant.

no lie. 2 times within 30 minutes i was asked if i was pregnant and both times i had to say no, but i was pregnant almost 5 months ago.

with ample motivation, wednesday i stayed after school to attend a free zumba class offered here. if you don't know what zumba is, click here . i guess the idea of the class is to shake off the fat? i don't really get it... but i will say things were shaking and flopping and moving in ways no one should ever have to see. im not sure if it hurt my muscles or my self esteem more to see myself in the giant dance room mirrors trying to 'salsa' and 'thrust' my fat away. just picture the final dance scene of napoleon dynamite. only im wearing stretchy pants and i need to pump. it was awesome on so many levels.

needless to say, this evening i still plan on exercising, but a brisk walk with porter in the jogger is probably all i can hack. baby steps. i have done something active (walking, yoga, zumba) everyday since saturday. i can't wait until i can finally get back to jogging. again, baby steps.

fresh start.

i loved being pregnant, and having a bambino is amazing... but being fat is the pits.

this is me documenting my attempt to reign it in. if you couldn't tell by the title, my goal is 25 pounds by january. funny thing is i weighed today to get started (in the nurses office at school b/c i don't own a scale) and i am actually 5 pounds less than i was last time i was at the dr. and was weighed. so maybe a more accurate goal is 20 pounds by january? whatev. i want to fit into my pre pregnancy jeans and feel like myself again by january. whatever it takes.

today i joined weight watchers online. this weekend we purchased a jogging stroller. i have some friends at school committed to do a little weight loss competition. some friends outside of school are willing to do yoga on saturdays.

...i am procuring help and encouragement from all fronts.

here we go. i am going to try to figure out how to be a working mom that puts a healthy lifestyle above a convenient one.

'before' pic coming soon. ew.